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Tuesday, 22 April 2008

  • jealous

    damn. i went onto facebook (as usual) and noticed a friend of mine had proposed to his girlfriend... damn. i wish i knew what she felt.. she probably was the happiest girl in the world, knowing that her man was so committed to her that he was willing to spend the rest of his life with her, knowing at the same time that he would be the happiest man in the universe. i wish i knew that feeling of being SO loved that my boyfriend didn't even think about what would happen in the future and all the possible events that could take place.

    why are girls so... into marriage? i dunno why... but i know that i love thinking about it because it's a fairytale that can be a reality. it's that special day where your "prince" wants to be with you and only you for the rest of his life... well, nowadays.. that doesn't really happen.. people get divorced and blah blah blah... but still, its a daydream where nothing can go wrong.
    oh life is so cruel... life has thrown to me a backstabbing cheater, a cynical critic, and... a realist. oh sure, i had special moments with all three of them... but the realist... wow. i love him, yes yes, i do... and i don't care if any of you think that it's too soon to say it. i truly and deeply love him... and i only wish that all the feelings that i have for him, were returned. i put my all into this relationship and i know that he tries too... but i feel that sometimes he doesn't try as hard as i do, and it disappoints me because that's how it usually is. the boy gets cold feet, the boy always forgets, the boy this and that... and  everytime i get into a relationship, i can only hope for a boy who is different and not the typical male whose actions can be predicted.
     
    what am i trying to even say? i don't know... a lot of the times, i don't know what point i'm trying to make... i guess i'm just jealous that she got the experience everything that i've ever wanted...

Saturday, 29 March 2008

  • 3.28.08

    i bought an ipod today because i thought the my ipod video was broken... turns out, it wasn't so now i have two ipods. D: oh well, i love the new nano. plus, it's in my favorite color: green!
    i baked a LOT today. i made two batches of cookies, a crapload of stuffed croissants, and... breaded chicken. i made a huge mess in the kitchen and my mom bitched at me for making a mess... which was kinda dumb cause i seriously JUST finished baking and i was making my way towards cleaning up...plus, my mom is never home anyway so she should've been thankful that i was hanging out with my brother and cooking for him instead of going out and spending money all the time. i was really annoyed...

    i'm getting a new phone tomorrow which is AMAZING because i've had the same phone since junior year. that's... three years with the same phone... the same phone that has no camera or anything... the only "cool" feature it has is the speakerphone... nowadays, the speaker option comes standard with all phones!

    my cousin is staying over.. w00t! what does that mean? staying up alllll night and just being kids... but seriously, when am i NOT a kid? but anyway, we rented V for Vendetta so maybe we'll watch that. He now goes to school in Connecticut which is kinda awesome... it gives me a reason to travel to a new state :D

    i love traveling so much...  i love the east coast and everything about it... it makes me want to travel back in time and choose a different school... what would my life be like if i went to Mt. Holyoke instead of UCSB? i have no clue... maybe i'd only have warm clothes and no t-shirts... and maybe i'd be HELLA lighter than i am now... but who really knows? only God does.. i wish he could show me.. i'm so curious to know

    i need a job so i can travel more. boston and new york <3 i love those two places SO MUCH.. any other place i want to go? costa rica, mexico, texas, philadephia, and i want to go to new york again because that means i'll have another chance at finding demetri martin. keke.
    i realized that i like strange guys. i know it sounds weird because i have a boyfriend, but i was analyzing all my past relationships and pretty much, my entire life and ever since i went to college, i figured out a lot about myself. i realized that i like strange boys who have this certain arsty feeling to them. i have a thing for film majors and boys who wear strange hats, but most of all... i've fallen for smart people. sometimes i didn't even know that they were smart... but in the end, they were. i think it's because i lack intelligence and i want it in my life... so i'll find someone who has a LOT of it.. does that even make sense? i also learned that i have a really weird sense of style. i like the hip hop look but i don't listen to much hip hop. i like the uniform look and i also like the clean look of coats. i also like REALLY cartoon-ish things aka hot topic t-shirts. i'm such a weird person... i also learned that i can be quite motherly. i didn't even realize it at first, but ever since my parents divorce, i've become my brother's caretaker. it was really hard at first because i would have to come home from college to pick him up and take him to his SAT classes, but i realized that i was able to do it. it's because of my parents' split up, that my brother and i have gotten even close than before..

    anything else in my life that's risen to the surface to be noticed? nothing for now... except that i bake cookies a lot... and i haven't drawn in a long time. hopefully that'll change.

Monday, 04 February 2008

  • life.

    1. 2 days until it's our four months <3333
    2. i need to pee, but i don't want to pee cause it hurts to...
    3. valentine's day plans were SAVED! he almost saw them... but i managed to delete them off of my computer before he saw them!
    4. omg, i really need to pee

Monday, 24 December 2007

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